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it's 2010....

2010-01-07T15:28:00.003+08:00

From the last blog entries, date on Aug 2009, i realised that i haven not been writing to my blog for almost 5 months. I have been so lazy to write and i felt that my whole life is simple. nothing amazing to blog about.

Well, i should stop my slackness already. Those who have been reading my blog, should be aware about my relationship.. Just a update to you that, my dardar is still holding on together with me. Yappy! happy right. it is not easy at all but is worth andl lovely!

Begin with a wonderful 2010~~!!
My wish list for 2010:

DSLR Camera
Burberry Bag
Upgrade my car
Earn more money to get what i want
Save more money
Pending to change my hp too
Travel

Sudden felt a lost at it, donno what to write for my wish list. Maybe I'm still day dreaming. i should write a list what have accomplished on 2009. Will be updating soon. =)

new semester begins...

2009-08-19T16:47:00.004+08:00

Year 2 Semester 1 begin. This is just my 2nd week of semester, still got 11 weeks more to exam. i felt that actually the semester passes very fast. Guess what i did yesterday? i called to NTU admin to request whether can i add another module for this semester as i miss the add/drop period last week. I'm glad that she approved my request but then, she nag at me, saying no more next time. I'm taking total of 4 modules (Microprocessor, Integrated Electronic, Signals & Systems, Laboratory) now, 2 of them are year 3 modules. (I'm a kan chiong spider right?) haha... So,,,, i got lesson every weekday evening except on THURS! I told myself the time passes very quick and fast so don't think of it!

Since I'm taking 4 modules this semester, i sow blood must die die be hardworking for this semester as my GPA dropped last semester. I know i didn't do well last semester, been very lazy and no motivation.

Way to go, jia you Jocelyn.... Can't be a puncture tyres! Score with a flying colour and double hardworking!!!!!! As well, im looking forward towards December as Dar and me are planning to go oversea.

Chinese Phase to describe :先苦后甜

Tight Braces Again

2009-08-06T16:58:00.006+08:00

I went to dental to adjust my braces yesterday. Same thing repeating again and again, that is..........

"I feel my tooth are SO tight and painful again!"

PAIN until i keep on playing my tooth so that i won't feel so much pain esp. my front 4 tooth that are tight with close chain. It's 2ND day of tightening and the pains are still on. Hopefully tomorrow the pain is reduce a bit.

*wink wink* pain pain go away.

***Can't wait to remove my braces!***

Countdown to 3 more months!

Watching "The Hangover" tonight!

My sunday!

2009-08-03T15:04:00.017+08:00

Woke up from Dar's place as no one was around. Dar and his mummy are working so i decided to go AMK HUB to shop and settle my lunch.

Face Treading
I headed to In Beauty located at AMK central to do face treading yesterday. It's was my first time doing it and it was damn painful. I couldn't tolerate the pain at all.

It's started off with my forehead.
1stly, she start with the area that tend to have alot of baby hair, upper forehead.
the feeling is "tickling like ants biting." Guess i got alot of fine hair bahz haha.

2ndly, follow by your left check, this part is still tolerable. not as painful as the forehead.

3rdly, your left lower jaws. CAUTION! This is the most hurtful and bloody pain area for me! The feeling is "PAPER CUTTING"! I have held my both hand tightly.

note: 1st to 3rd steps continue on your right face.

lastly, the SENSITIVE area around your mouth called as your "little moustache" need to be remove! The lady asked me to M-shaped my mouth and the pain going to start again. My tears dropped, wasted it.

After complete the whole process, my face can describe as NUMB. When i looked myself at the mirror, my face was super red even the powder can't cover my redness. No choice, for the sake of beauty, i have to tolerate the pain. It's was itch at first but it recover very fast.

Jogging
When I'm headed back to Dar's place, i decided to go for a jog! I'm kinda lazy gal, so this time, i push myself to do some exercise. I started to jog at 5.10pm at Bishan Park. I jogged the whole Bishan Park and back to Dar's place at 5.50pm. It's kinda fast i think haha. I did some push-up also! After resting about 15mins, DAR is back! He tabao my dinner for me too. He told i won't be back so early haha and asked why i finish my jogging so fast? Resting, bathing and have my chicken rice and resting until the night fall.

I was watching Miss USA Beauty Pageant last midnight.
They are so confident, sophisticated, beautiful.

Miss USA 2009 - Miss North Carolina USA - Kristen Dalton

but..........She's my preferred MISS USA, i like her fabulous smile but she got 3rd runner-up.

Miss Arizona USA - Alicia-Monique Blanco

Health Screening

2009-07-29T11:53:00.003+08:00

Today, we are been told to do our health screening test. We are giving a grant of $50 to each of us. I felt that the test is quite expensive if without the subsidise.

They have 4 packages available:
1. Premium Blood Test Package: $55
2. Comprehensive Test Package: $105
3. Ehanced Test Package: $125
4. Overall Test Package: $165

I choose (3) enhanced test package cos it's include of ovarian test. I have never do this of test before. I been doing the normal screening package includes height and weight measurements, blood pressure and pulse reading, blood screening for total cholesterol, HDL cholesterol, LDL cholesterol, cholesterol ratio, triglycerides and blood glucose, eye test and body fat analysis but this time, i felt that i should check more intensively and i should really got to know my condition well. Enhanced Test Package includes of Liver profile, Hepatitis profile, Kidney profile, Endocrine profile, bone & joint profile, ovarian cancer marker, venereal profile, full blood count, Hb indices and blood Group.

Liver Profile: total bilirubin, alkaline phosphatase, SGPT (ALT), SGOT (AST), gamma GT (GGT), total protein, albumin, globulin, alb/glob ratio.
Hepatitis Profile: hep B s antigen, hep B s antibody, hep A antibody.
Kidney Profile: urea, creatinie, potassium, sodium, chloride, urine feme.
Endocrine Profile: free thyroxine (FT4), thyroid stimultating hormone (TSH).
Bone & Joint Profile: Calcium, phosphate, uric acid, rheumatoid arthritis.
Cancer Markers: alpha-feto protein (AFP), carcino embryonic antigen (CEA), ovarian (CA125) or prostate (PSA) cancer.
Venereal Profile: VDRL
Full Blood Count: hb, total, WBC, plt, ESR, differential count, PBF.
Hb Indices: HCT, MCV, MCH, MCHC.
Blood Group: ABO and Rhesus.

My colleague said that it would cost normally up to $300+ for a women to do a health screening + ovarian test in hospital and clinic. It's consider that we are lucky that we got a budget and worth health screening provide to us. The process is short and i don't feel pain at all. Well-trained nurse. FYI, they took about 10cc x 2 of the bottles.

I spent a total of $125 inc. 7% GST = $133.75.
With company's subsidise = #133.75 - $50=$83.75

Although i don't have much money left, but i felt that i can't save this kind of money. It screening date is from 28 -31 July. $83.75 is more worth than a life of mine. Hopefully everything is fine. =)

If you are keen to do a test like what i did, please go to:
Health Outreach Programme Pte Ltd
69 Ayer Rajah Cresent #03-04 Singapore 139961
Tel: (65) 67466033-6777

Hell yu Hell yu!

2009-07-27T11:12:00.005+08:00

Sorry bloggie that i neglected you. I was so busy recently and i realised that i never my blog for 4 months. Back to square 2!

Maybe some of my friends are curious what am i busy at that moment. Arh, struggling in study, preparing for exam, hunting for job and been going interviews for the past few months.

I have a very bad experience from my previous job but with heaven god, i was with them for 2 months only.

Story begins when i ended my contract with NYP (April).........
I was ask to work in a small local company that got 2 lady bosses, 1 admin and me. My job task was supposed to be a telemarketer, this is continue until the admin gal decided to quit. Of cos, my job is change to morning - admin, afternoon- telemarketer. Franky, I'm damn not use to it at first cos I'm a engineer which i know my limit that I'm not capable for administrative work. haha.

My everyday routine work has become very busy. Sometime i need to do sales when they booked a bazaar. Not only this, incl: pack stock, event runner, handle account and printing of voucher. I felt that I'm so call as "all into 1" package staff! Felt not Worthy. I was pissed for what she has arranged:

I was late at the beginning which she couldn't accept that she want to sign timesheet whether I'm in & out. If i late 5 MINS, deduct $$$$5. Bloody hell, that's alot. Her work is always heavy. I have to OT most of the day to 7/8pm everyday. When i told her that can i compensate the amount that i work OT to my minutes of late? SHE SAID: NO SUCH THINGS! It's my problem that i can't finish my work on time and have to OT. IS she is a good boss? I can say NO. She just think of work must be done but does she ever concern about her staff?

What she did, she really deduct my pay from $1500 to $1143.60 (gross income)!!!!! Let me break it out:

No of days work: $1500*20/22= $1363.54 (2 days of MC, without Medical Leave Scheme)

24 June: 9am-9.15am=$5
9.15am-11.30am=$135 ($140)
26 June: 9am-9.15am=$5
9.15am-10.30am=$75 ($80)
Total Deduction is $220!!!!!

Most of the days i reach before 8.30 cos i'm sending my bf to work which i can reach my workplace very early. My per day salary is $68.18 only. How could she deduct more than one of day allowance? If that the case, i should not turn up for work and take a MC instead which only deduct $68.18! Should i complain to MOM? It's flecking ass!

She still owe me another salary which i suppose to get it in 5th July but till now, i have not receive. Whenever i asked her when can i receive the amount through sms, she show impatient and impolite in her msg. She is a worst lady i have ever seen. I'm glad that I'm out of that stupid shitty company. God Bess!

Job Hunting

2009-03-25T17:07:00.003+08:00

it's been a long time since i blogged.
i been very confusing recently cos of my new job hunting.
sometimes i felt that i'm in depression.
i been sending over 100 resumes to employer but response is low.

There are 3 pending jobs for me.
Government, Ministry: still pending for 2nd interview.
LTA: 2nd interview is confirmed, 1st April.
Raffles Institution (JC): waiting for 1st interview, this coming fri.
i have rejected one local company from kallang yesterday. i am honestly to tell him i have a better offering. the employer look high prospect in me but in e end, i gave up the job opportunity. Nvm, hopefully i can get in either one of it in pending.

i neglected my studies also. i tend to skip lesson often. i have 3 more weeks to my examinations. i can't be so playful already. i keep on telling myself not to waste my school fees. i have to try my best. my dar just enrolled part time studies at unisim. i wish that his application will be successful cos he decided to study.

i can't wait for my new working environment to come. i think I'm getting sick of my job in nyp already. i become lazier and no more motivation to work already. let's count down 4 more week to my last day of work then.

"I want to get a confirmation of my new job asap , please!"

Tired Tired Tired

2009-03-04T11:07:00.011+08:00

Morning. I felt so sleepy now because i played mj at dar house with his friends last night. We played 3 rounds. Coincidence that i "tiao" my "dong fong" 3 times too. Luckly right. haha. I win $6 and dar-$4 haha. Bu it was a tiring game. Its seem this i have improve my skill. No more "zha hu" haha. Hopefully can improve for the better.

March Season

2009-03-02T18:03:00.003+08:00

it's march now. I'm so sigh. No job news back yet. Why taking them so long? 2 more months, i'm going to be jobless liao. Anyway, my recess term break finish. This week back to school for lesson. Left 6 weeks to my examination. Haha can't play around soon. I want mj. Maybe this friday night mj haha. Oh, i missed my laopo. I'm meeting her for dinner tomolo. Gal's gossip haha. Muakz. Chaoz.

thank you dear.

2009-02-25T11:04:00.022+08:00

DAR, i want to write to you again.

do you know how long we been together already?

Coming April, it going to be 6 years Anniversary.

This is the longest relationship in my life.

We have been separated before and we came through it.

Its never easy for us but we have always been holding on cos we love each other.

Thanks for been tolerate my nuisance sometimes. I will tend to be stubborn too haha.

It's fun to be just with you.

I have sense the love you're giving me now and you,

Love me to scratch your back. You want it every night before you sleep.

Big baby boy! Exactly same as Oscar. Love to"sayang".

::I'm getting mushy, OPEN YOUR EYES BIG!::

Thanks for all those years to be by my side. Our efforts have come to so far.

Nothing can separated from us now.

I want you to be with me from now and forever.

Becos i just like the way we are.

Don't said i love you more than you love me.

You love me more than i love you now.

There are more points for you to love me more.

I want to write to you cos i'm appreciating the effort we are putting.

Life maybe a bit hard for us now because we are tight of money.

DAR, it's ok. I'm sure you are a future successful man.

Counting 3 months to your ORD!

Really love you too.... I want everything in and out from you. =p Muackz

================Memories that fall behind===================

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M i too sensitive?

2009-02-23T10:05:00.003+08:00

I'm asking myself a question:
m i too sensitive?
I donno why. Just that sometimes i got a feel that something isn't right. It's came all of sudden.
is it bcos of a bit of ignoring and unconcern then i became to be sensitive again?
Pls la. He won't be always 24/7 with me. Why m i over concerning it?
The feeling is bad, i hate it.

i really donno why I'm that of BIG sensitive.
i wish that I'm not.
whenever my sensitive is been alert, i will tend to anyhow think.
i know i'm thinking too much that why i won't speak out.
cos is i'm e one thinking too much. it's nothing happen.
i guess it's bcos he's too tired sometimes.
will tend to neglect certain things.

PS: PLEASE DON'T BE THAT KIND OF BIG SENSITIVE.
STOP YOUR NONSENSE NOW.
I'M TELLING MYSELF! STOP IT.
I HATE THIS!

Crazy Mindy Quizzes

2009-02-20T14:33:00.003+08:00

Just finished my Analog Electronics Quiz last night. Managed to score 8 out of 10 and i got 18% of marks already. There are two more quizzes to go: Mathematics on next Monday and Digital Electronics on 5th march. The killing subject is mathematics! Alot of steps have to be done in one questions. I have not start my revision yet as the quiz will be in 3 more days. Going to die man. Digital E. covers alot of topics, from tutorial 1-7. It's crazy loh. Analog E. quiz only cover tutorial 1-3. Some more, i still have to prepare my report writing for another module. I guess i can't complain much cos i'm the one who wanted to study. Be hardworking then. Aiming to score well this semester, hope my wish come true. =)

I'm going to be a free lady soon. Contract going to end soon.
Jobs, please give me some response please.!.!
I need you................................

i'm back to blogging!

2009-02-19T10:33:00.003+08:00

I realised that i have not been blogging for almost a month. I didn't keep myself update to you guys. Life still the same, school reopen that why I'm SO busy. My schedule is i need to travel to NTU 4 days a week, that's consist alot of days for part-time studies.

I have learnt a new skill: MAHJONG!
Thanks to dar arh. Cos he recently pick up the skill too. Its quite interesting, it's more to mind game. My first round was during the 3rd day of Chinese new year with my sister and her bf. Alot of rules for mahjong instead. Got "dong, nan, xi, bei, big cards, kue animals, an gang, ping hu, yi shei, pan shei and .........................." I can't remember all the rules as dar have taught me alot of times.

Mahjong is addictive!
The funniest part is i will dream of mahjong when i'm sleeping just after the match. I been dreaming for 2 nights. The image of mj couldn't get off my mind. I lost 2 nights of beauty sleep. I ADMIT THAT I'M STILL BLUR IN MAHJONG. I almost "zha hu" alot of times and always tend to forgot to replace my gan card.

Comparing Mahjong to Poker Card:
Mahjong is more challenging than Poker card. Fun!
Whenever we are free, we will think of MJ. Although the bets we played is 20cent - 40cent. I have lost $70 for 3 nights. Can't blame anyone, cos it's luck. Its whether your cards is nice or bad. Hmmmm, must be sharp enough liao. No mistake again.

This sun mahjong again haha. I'm waiting for you!

Valentine with You.

2009-02-19T10:00:00.005+08:00

Before the night of valentine,

We were playing mahjong till 4am.

We woke at late noon.

We were planning on where to go,

By right, we decided to catch a movie,

Bout sound kinda boring cos no good movies recently.

Dar had suggested to go

SINGAPORE FLYER!

We reserved the slots at 6.30pm.

We were late cos of our laziness (sleeping),

we reached flyer at 6.45pm.

The queue was long cos it's a special occasion for everyone.

We queue for almost half & hour before we got on board.

The best achievement we get is able to see the sightseeing BEFORE & AFTER sunset.

Its was different from day and night.

We able to see the flyer WITHOUT/WITH lighting.

We earned it right?

After 30mins of ride,

Its time for the next passenger to on board.

We had a dinner at "POPEYES" inside Singapore Flyer.

The queue was damn damn long.

Only 3 service counters were opened at that time.

Dar have queue for 40mins before getting our food.

It's yummy! Delicious than KFC!

Valentine night going to fall.

We were planning to play MJ again.

So, we get to play MJ again!

(photos will be update soon! =)

Valentine with you is more enough than i have for miles.

Staying beside you and love you is all about you.

HAPPY VALENTINE TO LOVE!

Depression Sister

2009-01-20T18:06:00.005+08:00

My younger sister was downed last night.
We both have a heart to heart talk.
I understand that she's under alot of stress in her study.
Cos previously a NT student and was given a chance to rise to NA Stream.
She is in NA now and the stress level is different now as well.
I was shocked that during the year of her NA Steam, she was under alot of stress and pressure.
She was busted to cry last night.
I believed that she have tolerate the pain for few days.
She told me about her friendship, BG relationship, things happen in school and working issue.
I know our family is kinda poor. We have to work in order to have some money to spend.

We have to, sister. Alright? Don't do comparison with your friends. They are borh to be rich.
Remember what i told you last night?
You are a big girl now.
Everything you decide, you have to think of future.
Planning and schedule is a good practise to start now.
Plan about how are you going to manage studies and working at the same time.
If you think that exam is around the corner which you unable to handle, just stop your working for the time being.
Studies are important too.
Be a responsible girl from now onwards.
Can you, TYR?
I hope one day you will be.
Getting scolded from us, i know you are unhappy with it.
But its is meant for your own good.

Any problems or difficulties, you still have your sister to be with you. =)
Don't stress up yourself anymore.
Everything have a way of solving. Look on the bright side.
You still have a bright future.

Best Regards,
Your Er Jie

Meaning of Sleeping & Kissing

2009-01-09T11:37:00.009+08:00

Swensen 1 for 1 -GOLD RUSH VOUCHER

2009-01-09T11:37:00.003+08:00

VOUCHERS!!!!!!

I got this e-flyers from my sister.
It's a promo from Swensen.
Vaild from 5 - 31 Jan 2009.
Please remember to print this flyers before ordering.

It's 2009!

2009-01-07T09:33:00.005+08:00

A year had passed.

All happening in 2008 was gone which was become a memories in people's heart.

My 2008 isn't that bad but with a boring life of working and studying.

There's goes a year.

Hopefully, my 2009 will be better.

But, ecomony is bad now.

So i can't have high hopes also.

Chinese New Year coming in 3 weeks time.

It's gambling season haha.

Uni Sch reopen this week.

Gonna be hardworking than last semester.

I want to score well.

I know i'm greedy haha.

Anyway, i'm going to hunt for job before CNY comes.

High salary!

My aims for 2009:
Cut on diet,
Increase my saving,
DSLR Camera,
Burberry Wallet,
Burberry Bag,
Modify my Ms Black &
Travel at least 1 country.

New Year is around the corner!

2008-12-30T21:29:00.004+08:00

"New Years are a Chance for a Beginning"
New years are a chance for a beginning
Even when there hasn't been an end.
Wheels turn in an interminable bend,
Yet, marked in one spot,
seem to wobble spinning
Each year we hope to do a little better
Although we know that really nothing's changed.
Reason thinks that everything's arranged,
So we must dream if we would fate unfetter.
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"Dar's dingDong "
In the waking minutes of a new year
a fantasy draws near fulfillment
-and is interrupted.
Tonight
I have sat at your feet
and longed, longed to touch you.
I have smiled teasingly into your eyes
and noticed that I held your gaze
for moments that suspended time.
I have taken your hands,
kissed your lips,
wondered about you infinitel
-and at this hour
I am left
wishing desperately
for more time with you,
because now
I can only imagine
what might have happenedand whether
I will touch you again.
Love you once again.
=p

Mount Faber Park & Vivo City

2008-12-28T17:50:00.006+08:00

Movie of the day: The Day The Earth Stood Still

Dinner of the night: The Mussel Guy Seafood

While i was waiting for dar to come back, i told this picture with a cup of hazelnut latte and our phones at Mussel Guy.

Relax enviroment!

Holy Xmas Celebration'08

2008-12-27T23:17:00.015+08:00

"How i spend my Xmas Celebration this year?"

Woot. I'm so tiring after meeting with lots & lots of friends that from ite, sec sch, poly and colleagues.

I'm listing how i meets-up for all my friends for Xmas:

20 DEC: Shopping with laopo @ Orchard. i bought a suspender for dardar as a xmas present. We had a steamboat dinner at "Zhen Fa Seafood" @ Novena with my NYP classmates. With Benson, Aiai Laopo, Yuming, Gallen and me. Abit pity that Ah yee, Linyun and ah jo can't join us. But a nice dinner throughout.
23 DEC: DTs Xmas gathering once again. Time passes fast. I still recalled we had a celebrating at Jack's Place. We have it at "Outback Steakhouse" @ Millenia Walk.
i ordered a Grilled Salmon Marsala. Its taste great! A recommended healthy dish for people who like a mushroom cream sauce and boiled vegetable. We have a total of 18 presents to be exchange. See below!

24 DEC: Half day of work!
Well, i meet up with my ex-colleagues from Famous Amos! With jane & baby javier, xiu, pei wen and wendy. I'm sorry to xiu cos you have waited me for almost an hour cos i have lost my way to aljunied, in e end you have to go make your friends instead. With my Navigator phone, i managed to find my walk to exact BLK of wendy's cousin house @ aljunied crescent. I have waste my one hour petrol to look out for that place. We had a nice buffet dinner & I GET TO EAT TURKEY but a slice of it only. Haha. We do presents exchange for friends and luckly draw too! I draw a Watch! haha. It's a square leather design that bought from Wendy. Thanks gal! There's more...............
I have to rush to pasir ris after that. It was Christoper's brother 21st Bdae celebration. By the time i reached, its almost 11pm. I'm still in time for xmas countdown haha. It's was kinda bored cos all of them were playing majong. I played Black Jack & I'm Lucky that i won! Leaving at 3am to have my nap to prepare to meet my dar the next day.
25 DEC (It's Xmas!): I told dar I'm supposed to meet him at 12noon. Guess what? I got a sudden woke at 12noon haha. I jumped out of bed & faster picked up my phone to msg dar telling him i'm just awake. Without hesitating, i have to faster took my bath and prepare to meet him. I thought we will have a normal Xmas celebration this year, but NO! We have our Xmas @ Malaysia this year with his friends tagging along. We had a Bakut Tea that's shirley recommend. We head straight to Time Square for shopping. It's hell man. We couldn't find a parking. It's freaking squeezing somemore. Dar is so freaking pissed off also. I bought a shadal and a pair of earring from VINCI, Pardini store. Dar bought a sweater fron Pardini Store too. Guess i have fall in love with PARDINI. Of cos not to miss our car washing for our baby before we head back to Singapore. We went to shirley's house to gamble "daidee" haha. I lost $150 within 2 hours. My highest round is i lost $65 in a round loh. They're playing a huge bet! My dar is the winner of the Night. Finally, We are going home to have a home sweet home Xmas with only both of us. Er ren shi Jie!
26 DEC: Dental Appointment in e Afternoon with Dar's accompanies.
A Xmas cum Bdae gathering @ Sake Sushi, Parco Bugis Junction with ITE classmates. With Ben Say, Roger, ting Feng and Connie who is the Bdae girl! We went to Marina Bay after our Dinner! It's damn nice loh. I was amazed by how they designed and the place was damn damn big. I headed back to dar's house after the gathering. Cos kinda miss him.

Did you spot the Singapore Flyers? Look carefully.
It's temporary not in operation due to technical fault.

Thanks to all my friends who celebrating my Xmas with me.

It's a lovely white Xmas that i received this year and thanks for all the presents!

Thanks! We shall meet up again. =)

Promo Only Mainstream Radio November 2008

2008-12-17T09:48:00.003+08:00

BEST HIT SONGS ON NOVEMBER 2008

01. Britney Spears - Womanizer
02. Beyonce - If I Were A Boy
03. David Cook - Light On
04. T.I. Ft. Rihanna - Live Your Life
05. Christina Milian - Us Against The World
06. All-American Rejects - Gives You Hell
07. Mariah Carey - I Stay In Love
08. Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody
09. Akon - Right Now (Na Na Na)
10. Jennifer Hudson with Young Jeezy - Spotlight
11. Matt Nathanson - Come On Get Higher
12. The Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part
13. Taylor Swift - Love Story (Pop Edit)
14. The Academy Is… - About A Girl
15. Natasha Komis - Party Of The Year
16. Dondria - Can't Stop
17. Brianna Taylor - Summertime
18. AC/DC - Rock N Roll Train
19. Ida Corr vs Fedde Le Grand - Let Me Think About It
20. Christina Aguilera - Keeps Gettin' Better (Clean Edit)

Preview the album:
http://www.cococ.com/albummusic/18103.html

All i want for Christmas is You

2008-12-15T09:17:00.001+08:00

When i first got to listen to this song - "All i want for Christmas is You" by Mariah Carey, i thought of you. It make me misses and loves you more as each day passes. Meaningful and truefully, that i just want you to feel how i felt to you my dear.

"Joyful Merry Christmas to You
&
All i want for Christmas is You too!"

I don't want a lot for Christmas

There's just one thing I need

I don't care about the presents

Underneath the Christmas tree

I don't need to hang my stocking

There upon the fireplace

Santa Claus won't make me happy

With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for my own

More than you could ever know

Make my wish come true

All I want for Christmas is You............. YOU BABY

I won't ask for much this Christmas

I don't even wish for snow

I'm just gonna keep on waiting

Underneath the mistletoe

I won't make a list and send it

To the North Pole for Saint Nick

I won't even stay awake to

Hear those magic reindeers click

'Cause I just want you here tonight

Holding on to me so tight

What more can I do

Baby all I want for Christmas is............ YOU

Ooh baby

All the lights are shining

So brightly everywhere

And the sound of children's

Laughter fills the air

And everyone is singing

I hear those sleigh bells ringing

Santa won't you bring me the one I really need

Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas

This is all I'm asking for

I just want to see my baby

Standing right outside my door

Oh I just want you for my own

More than you could ever know

Make my wish come trueBaby

all I want for Christmas is...........Y O U

Shopping & Xmas Lighting 2008 with Dearest Cheryl!

2008-12-12T00:53:00.007+08:00

****I miss the fun with you! Take care of yourself gal!*****

New Outlook of Deslynie.Bell Blog

2008-12-12T00:08:00.004+08:00

DESLYNIE.BELL 2ND BANNER DESIGNED!

Haha. I spent few hours sitting at my computer desk for the purpose is to design my blog.

I like my background very much. its make my blog look lively.

It's filled with alot of different colour hearts.

As well as my New Banner, i think it's look a bit simple. Doesn't seem attractive enough. Guess i have to redesign again. I will temporary use the banner first then. Cos i like it also.

I love SIMPLE!

Can't wait for my bonus to come this Saturday.

2 more days to wait before it's bank in to my account!

ITE gathering coming soon again! This Saturday, 13 Dec.

Guys, don't forget our date alright. See ya!

Zoukout Party & Siloso Beach Party 2008

2008-12-02T20:35:00.019+08:00

ZOUKOUT SILOSO BEACH SENTOSA

SATURDAY
13TH DECEMBER 2008
630PM - 8AM

**$38 Advance Happy Hour tickets SOLD OUT!

**entry to ZoukOut venue before 9pm only.

Limited to 2000 tickets, available at the Zouk ticketing booth only.

- Live Fresh DBS Visa Platinum Cards enjoy 15% discount off tickets

$48 Advance tickets (up till 12th December)

- Live Fresh DBS Visa Platinum Cards enjoy 15% discount off tickets and all other DBS/POSB Credit Cards get 5% off

$58 Event Day tickets on 13th December

Available from the Zouk ticketing booth (all day) and at the venue (from 6.30pm onwards)

- Live Fresh DBS Visa Platinum Cards enjoy 15% discount off tickets and all other DBS/POSB Credit Cards get 5% off

Advance tickets are also available at http://www.sistic.com.sg/ all SISTIC authorized agents, SISTIC Hotline: +65 6348 5555, and at HMV Heeren +65 6733 1822 and CitIlink +65 6238 7218.Minimum age of entry 18, photo ID required to gain entry.Note: The entire Zouk complex will be closed on this night.*This is a rain or shine event. Swimming is strictly prohibited during the entire event.

SILOSO BEACH PARTY

WEDNESDAY

31ST DECEMBERR 2008

8PM - 6AM

AdmissionAdvance (Till 20 Dec)

S$49 (includes 2 drinks and S$20 worth of food voucher)

S$29 (includes 1 drink)

Islanders (Till 20 Dec)

15% off ticket price

Price includes event admission, 1 drink and transportation via Sentosa Express and bus.

Standard (21 - 31 Dec)

S$65 (includes 2 drinks and S$30 worth of food voucher)

S$35 (includes 1 drink)

Price includes island and event admission, transportation via Sentosa Express and bus.

Prices exclude SISTIC booking fees for tickets purchased at SISTIC.

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Hi girls & guys, anyone keen to go to SILOSO BEACH PARTY on 31 DEC?

I'm interested! PM me if you wanna join me alright?

The more the merrier & we shall have fun together!

Nikon: Gal, Are you interested?

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COLLECT.TIONS!

2008-12-01T22:36:00.009+08:00

I LOVE PERFUME SO MUCH! ! !

I started collecting since 5 years ago.

When I was young, i can't afford to buy branded purfume so i started with "Tommy Girl" perfume that costs S$20.

Let me introduce my Perfumes (Left to Right):

1) Madememoiselle JACADI Paris - Bdae Gift frm Wendy

2) DKNY Be Delicious New York

3) CARON Fluer de Rocaille Paris

4) LANVIN Eclat D'arpege Paris

5)GUCCI Envy Me Paris

6) VERSACE Red Jeans Woman Italy - Bdae Gift frm Englee

7) DIOR Miss Dior Cherie Blooming Bouquet - Bdae Gift frm Dardar

8) FOREVER ELIZABETH Taylor Paris - Bdae Gift frm Zhi jie

9) VERSACE Blue Jeans Man Italy - Bdae Gift frm Englee

10) JENNIFER LOPEZ Live New York

11) ANNA SUI Dolly Girl on The Beach Germany

12) CARON Eaux de Fraiche Paris

DARDAR LOVES VODKA!
Above shows his Absolut Vodka collection!
Total of 13 Vodka up to date.

It's turn to introduce Absolut Vodka (Left to Right):
1) Absolut Vodka APEACH
2) Absolut Vodka VANILLA
3) Absolut Vodka RUBY RED
4)Absolut Vodka PEARS
5) ABSOLUT VODKA
6) Absolut Vodka MASQUERADE : Xmas Edition 2008
7) Absolut Vodka 100
8) Absolut Vodka MANGO
9) Absolut Vodka MANDARIN
10) Absolut Vodka RASPBERRY
11) Absolut Vodka CITRON
12) Absolut Vodka COCKTAIL SHAKER (Top left)
13) Absolut Vodka DISCO : Xmas Edition 2007 (Top right)

"there will be no stopping on our collections. More items will be in soon!"

My Last Paper t0molo0oo!

2008-11-23T11:47:00.006+08:00

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YEAH YEAH YEAH!

It's finally come to my last paper of my examination (24th Nov: Foundation Physic Paper)!

After tomolo of last paper, i can enjoy my one and a half month break before new term start.

I still left a paper to go but I'm already happily waiting for my school holiday to come.

Jia lat, some more i still don't have the determine to study now.

Hope i can survive tomol0 loh.

So shoilk, i no need to travel so far from my work place to NTU again. Cos the journey is really damn damn long loh. I can relax liao. haha. But at the same time, i hope i can score well for my examination also lah. I have tried my best le.

Alright, alright! I can't slack for the reminding hours left. Must focus on my last module which is the worse subject for me. Hate it man. Alot of formulas to remember loh. Sian Sian.

Must wish me good luck! I must tolerate for one more day before my nightmare is gone!

REN REN REN x millions!

.........................................

Chao liao, going back to study AGAIN!

Miss Mr Dar. haha!

Tang Dian Wang 汤点王

2008-11-22T13:41:00.005+08:00

Dar and me just went to a shanghai restaurant called "汤点王" for dinner on thursday's night. It locate at B1 Suntec City Mall. Unfortunately, i didn't take any photos on how the place looks like and the dishes we had also. But i can said that it is worth to eat and a good deal cos their dishes able to make you feel full and never expect that their portion for serving isn't small for each main course.

We ordered Shanghai vegetable and spare ribs soup ($18), Duck meat Bee Hoon ($9.90), Double egg fried rice ($7.90), Fried Toufu ($14.90) and 2 cups of glass jelly drinks. Bill is $63. It's reasonable price cos it taste nice and delicious. Dar and me LOVE the soup so much. It is well-boiled and can feel the thickness of the soup. I can said that it's better than Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe and prices are similar too. Bad to say that i can't find any image on 汤点王 through Internet also. But i found a REVIEW that i read it from Touching lives website.

I just realise that New York New York; offering America food, Shokudo; Singapore's biggest Japanese restaurant; Xin Wang Hong Kong Café and pinle, which sells soya bean drinks and Chinese pastries and ThaiExpress Concepts (ALL ARE MY FAVOURTIES!) are open by a young entrepreneur, Mr Ivan Lee aged 32. Married and a father of two girls, aged one and three, Mr Lee, whose wife is a homemaker, describes Thai Express as family. He is the boss of a diversified food and beverage (F&B) business that has 50 outlets locally and 25 abroad and enjoys an annual revenue of $80 million, Mr Lee says he has so far hired 80 senior citizens, 20 ex-offenders and about 10 handicapped workers in his Singapore workforce of 600.

I personally envy his talents. At such a young age, he is able to open so many outlets around the world. All of his restaurants are favour to Asian and Caucasian which people will able to accept as a new cuisine. So guys, don't forget to try it at Suntec City Mall as there is only one outlet in Singapore. i heard the waitress said 2nd outlet will be open at Orchard Area soon. Yeah. That's great!

Rated for Tang Dian Wang Shanghai Restaurant: ***** (5 Stars)

Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe @ Northpoint

2008-11-19T00:59:00.012+08:00

YUMMY! DELICIOUS! Just had my dinner at Northpoint NEW Shopping Center. My family and i went to "Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe" located at level 1. The outlet is quite big. When we reached the cafe, wow. the queue is already very long. But we still waited. Took about 20mins, it's our turn to go in to have our DINNER. It's a nice decoration with wooden fix-on-wall sits with red cushions. I like the place very much cos they're playing 流星歌曲 and they played quite loud. The services is good also. Once you're been seated, they will automatically ask you do you want to take any orders?

We have place alot of orders:

Cheese Baked Chicken chop Rice $9.90 (Mei) Rate: ****
Cheese Baked Beef Rice $9.90 (Mum) Rate: ***
Black Pepper Chicken chop Rice $8.50 (Me) Rate: ****
Din Sum: 3 pcs of Siew Mai $2.80 Rate: **
Din sum: 3 pcs of Har Gow $2.80 Rate: **
Iced Milo Dinosaur $2.90 (Mei) Rate: ***
Fresh Lime Juice $4.90 (Mum) Rate: *****
Iced Lemon Tea $4.90 (Dad) Rate: ***
Iced Ying Yong $2.90 (Me) Rate: ****

Main courses aren't expensive, still affordable. The size of each dishes aren't small also. It can fill your stomach haha. I felt that the din sum are expensive cos each pcs cost at 60cents haha. Some more so-so only and small. Total bills is $58.30 inc. 10% service charges and 7% GST. I treated my family a feast tonight. haha. All are happy with that it! =)

Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe Website

OVERALL RATE: **** 4 STARS - Can give it a try!

T A T T O O

2008-11-17T18:39:00.004+08:00

Is this lovely butterfly nice? It's a size of one hand pump.

Night @ Zouk!

2008-11-17T14:20:00.032+08:00

IT'S PARTY NIGHT WITH DAR!

I LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!

It's our first time that we're clubbing together.
We have asked our friends to go but nobody wanted to go.
So we go ourself loh. We went to Future, Phuture Night.
The songs aren't nice at that night and the DJ do alot of SPINNING.
It made us so headached cos he spins and spins and spins until we donno how to dance.
Club is addicted. haha.

---------------------------- ONE FOR ONE FREE -----------------------------------
One jug of Vodka Red Bull: $$$$$52!
Hell man, it was so expensive and it receipt stated $104 for 2 jugs somemore.
Db0 only cost one jug for $12! Why the difference is sooooo big?
ZOUK DRINKS ARE DAMN EX! Tot people head!

Pictures aka Jocelyn

2008-11-12T10:45:00.006+08:00

THAT'S ME.

THAT'S ME!!!!

Canon Digital IXUS 870 IS

2008-11-11T12:00:00.001+08:00

"One gadget in my waiting list."
I been deciding for a month whether should i buy this camera anot? The specs is damn good. The only point which make me hesitating to buy is the PRICE. It cost $599 in retail. So expensive. But thanks to PP, he supports me to buy and he gave me some cash to buy as a birthday gift for myself. Thanks alot. Anyway, i'm still waiting for Comex Fair or good promo to come first. =)

Canon Digital IXUS 870 IS

Specification:
Image Sensor
Camera Effective Pixels: Approx 10.0 Million pixels (CCD)
Lens
Focal Length(35 mm film equivalent): 4x zoom: 28(W) - 112(T) mm
Focusing Range
Normal: 50cm (1.6ft.) - infinity
Macro: 2 - 50cm (W), 30 - 50cm (T) (0.8in. - 1.6ft. (W), 12in. - 1.6ft. (T))
Digital Macro: 2 - 50cm (0.8in. - 1.6ft. (T))
Image Stabilizer (IS) system: Lens-shift type
Imaging processor: DIGIC 4
LCD Monitor
Type: 3.0-inch type, color LCD with wide viewing angle (Effective dots: Approx. 230,000 dots)
Features: Brightness adjustment (15 levels, Quick-bright LCD)
Focus: AF (Face Detect*¹*²/AiAF (9-points), center*³)*¹AF frame can be moved and fixed to specified face*² If no face is detected, AiAF (9-points) are used. *³ Normal or small sizes can be selected.
Metering System: Evaluative*¹, Center-weighted average, Spot*² *¹ Control to incorporate facial brightness in Face Detect AF.*² Fixed to center
ISO Speed: Auto, High ISO Auto, ISO 80/100/200/400/800/1600
White Balance: Auto*, Daylight, Cloudy, Tungsten, Fluorescent, Fluorescent H, Custom * Face Detection AF evaluates the color of faces in the scene
Shutter
Speed: 1/60 - 1/1600 sec.15 - 1/1600 sec. (Total shutter speed range.)
Aperture
Type: Circular type
f/number: f/2.8 / f/5.6(W), f/5.8 / f/11.6(T) (Use ND filter together)
Flash
Range: 30cm - 4.2m (W), 30cm - 2.0m (T)(12in. - 13.8ft. (W), 12in - 6.6ft. (T))
Shooting Specifications
Shooting Modes: Auto, P, Special Scene*, Movie * Portrait, Night Snapshot, Kids & Pets, Indoor, Sunset, Foliage, Snow, Beach, Fireworks, Aquarium, Underwater, ISO3200, Digital Marco, Color Accent, Color Swap, Stitch Assist
Digital Zoom: Still images/Movies: Approx. 4.0x (up to approx.16x in combination with the optical zoom), Safety Zoom, Digital Tele-converter
Main Features: i-Contrast, Red-eye corrector, AF-Point Zoom, Face Self-timer
Continuous Shooting: Approx. 1.4 shots/sec.
Number of Images Shot (CIPA): Approx. 310 images
Recording Specifications
Recording Media: SD memory card, SDHC memory card, MultiMediaCard, MMCplus card, HC MMCplus card
File Format: Design rule for camera file system, DPOF (Version 1.1) compliant
Data Type
Still Images: Exif 2.2 (JPEG)
Movies: MOV (Image data: H.264, Audio data: Linear PCM (monaural))
Audio: Sound memos, Sound Recorder: WAVE (monaural)
Number of Recording Pixels
Still Images: Large: 3648 x 2736, Medium 1: 2816 x 2112, Medium 2: 2272 x 1704, Medium 3: 1600 x 1200, Small: 640 x 480, Widescreen: 3648 x 2048 (Date stamp is available in all recording pixels)
Movies: Standard, Color Swap, Color Accent: 640 x 480 (30fps), 320 x 240 (30fps) - Not compatible with AVI
Playback Specifications
Main Features (Differences)
Still Images: Trimming, i-Contrast
Display Languages: 26 languages
Interface
Digital input/output (Hi-Speed USB* (MTP, PTP supported))Audio and video Output** Unified connector for digital, audio and video (mini-B compatible)
Power Source
Battery Pack NB-5LAC Adapter Kit ACK-DC30
Dimensions (excluding protrusions): 93.8 x 56.8 x 23.6 mm (3.69 x 2.24 x 0.93in.)
Weight (camera body only):Approx. 155g (5.47oz.)

XMAS SALES 2008

2008-11-11T10:47:00.006+08:00

C.H.R.I.S.T.M.A.S. .G.I.F.T.S

Hi guys, want to get ex-ordinary gift on xmas season?

Here are a list of ideas gifts for presents. You seldom see this in market.

If you're interested or need more details, Pls email me at: deslynie@gmail.com/anrlene_85@hotmail.com

I will get back to you asap!

CLICK THE PICTURES TO ZOOM!

DIY Flower Decor

2008-11-08T15:54:00.006+08:00

Haha im so in love with my DIY flower potting. It's my 1st time doing this. Never expect that i can did it quite well haha. Here is my creative:

Main flower: Mu Dan Flower
Others Flowers: Lilies, White and purple Chrysanthemum, lavender and leaf.
Accessories: small pots and sponge.

Total cost of making 3 flower decor pots: $16..... (So cheap right? Cos it's DIY ma. Haha)

Count dOwn LiSt

2008-11-01T20:32:00.003+08:00

1 day to collect my Ms Black

8 days to my boy come back from taiwan

13 days to my first paper (Examination)

24 days to my last paper (Examination)

29 days to Batam Trip

35 days to Bangkok Trip

AND

55 days to CHRISTMAS 2008!

MS BLACK

2008-11-01T20:11:00.006+08:00

Yeah! I'm so happy. I'm collecting my Ms Black tomolo!
I can drive whereever & whenever i want to.

It's not easy to buy a car. Alot of documents need to be settled! Example:

Find a High Bank Loan & Wait for Approval.
Find a cheap Car Insurance.
Get a people who is over 30 years of age and over 10years of diving experience to be your car owner.
Monthly income at least 2k to be a guarantor.
Lastly, Make sure your car's condition is good!

I have been sleepless for nights because i'm troubled about bank loan and think am i able to feed my car? I been thinking and thinking. I consulted all my friends, they told me actually my agent sold me at a high price but everything is too late. I might be making rush decision to buy car as i didnt check out other vehicle's shop and i bought my Ms Black. BUT I LOVE MY MS BLACK SO MUCH. It isn't a big CC car. Here the information of my blackie:

Car Agent: Prime Car Pte Ltd
Vehicle Model: KIA RIO HATCHBACK SPORT
Engine Capacity: 1399cc
Vehicle No: SGL8590P
Price Deal: $31,000
First Registration Date: 29 Sept 2006
Warrantly Left: 1 Year

From now onwards, i have to save more money!
IT IS A MUST!

hOPe i bE aBle t0 SurVive! HaHA.

Deslynie Bell Banner

2008-10-28T00:42:00.010+08:00

This is what i have designed for my own blogger!

****Nice!****

One Moment in Time

2008-10-27T20:33:00.007+08:00

DesDear had went to taiwan for NS training.

He will be back in 2 weeks time.

I'm missing my dear now.

Hope he's fine at there.

I know the training will be tough.

It's going to over soon.

Count down: 13 days left.

Huggies + Kisses to you dear.

"I'm so joyful, going to collect my baby car soon, i want to drive!"

Latest Online Sex Maniac + Crazy!

2008-10-23T09:30:00.008+08:00

Hi dude, I happened to read an email forward from my friend.
I think it's good to share out with you girls. This is a true story ans beware of this CRAZY man.
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Article Review:

Dear friends,

Please forward this email to your girls friends or the one you care! This incident happen to me, myself and Joyce in real life! This is not a story making thingy! You can choose to forward or just simply ignore if you feel this is a joke!

This guy who named Jason Poh came message me in friendster:

KRING wrote: "Hi. I am very sincere and looking for a friend, and long-term relationship. I would describe myself as an ambitious, fun loving, energetic individual who believes in living life to the fullest. I am interested in finding someone to grow with, besides around the waist. I take great pride in my physical appearance. I am looking for a real friendship and love, fun and relationship and traveling and know its a little far away, but I am a nice and genuine. I am a good listener, passionate and have a good sense of humor, and confident and looking for someone to share my laughter, dreams and the joys of life and for fun if so. But if we share the same interests, u could send me a message anytime to know each other better!! Jason And if you dun my to Call me O sMs me, my Mobile is 82602728".

I choose not to contact him via phone as I don't even know who the hell he is. We only managed to exchange msn and chat online.The 1st conversation online: This guy keep asking me to be his girlfriend and he insisted to meet up (only the 2 of us and he don’t want other parties). He keep asking questions related to sex which I feel he is sick. I rejected him nicely saying we can be friends and others we shall talk later. This guy is totally crazy! He keep saying he do not want to spent time understand a women being friends as he is looking for a GF/Wife.

I ignored his request and he demand me from deleting his email from my MSN but I cannot block him. (WTF)? I log off forgetting about what this crazy man said. Next day, he log in to msn and message threatening me that he will go to my friendster acct download all my pictures.

Below is the last conversation between me and him in msn before I blocked and delete him from my msn acct.

KRING says (12:54 AM): Hi cheeBye you to deleted my email off form your msn why you didnt do that, you wan me to post your photo and email on the irc
KRING says (12:54 AM): you can dare me
KRING says (12:54 AM): i had just download all your photo from friendster
KRING just sent you a nudge.
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:57 AM): u r crazy
KRING says (12:57 AM): yah i am
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:57 AM): is not about the age but ur mentality
KRING says (12:57 AM): you wan to try
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:57 AM): so childish
KRING says (12:57 AM): you not the first woman like this
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:57 AM): no wonder u cant find a gf
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): go ahead and do watever you u wan
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): it dun reali bother me
KRING says (12:58 AM): my gf is better and slim then you
KRING says (12:58 AM): sure
KRING says (12:58 AM): you wan like this
KRING says (12:58 AM): i post your photo n email
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): watever.. then u must be blind to msg me at first
KRING just sent you a nudge.
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): thank you for helping me to advertise
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): i can sure get better guys then u
KRING says (1:00 AM): i had post your photo n email on the classifed, u will get it v soon
KRING says (1:01 AM): and i know where you working, i will look for your boss
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (1:01 AM): wateverKRING says (1:01 AM): u love to challage me
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (1:01 AM): go to hell

I’ve blocked this person from my MSN and god, I’m lucky that I didn’t give him my phone number. I’m prepared that there will be some nuisance email coming to me. Please forward this email to all your friends that you care. There are too many crazy people and sex maniac online. Is always to be safe than sorry.

For your information:
Name: Jason Poh
Mobile: 82602728
Friendster profile: http://profiles.friendster.com/81623793
His MSN address: just_normal_girl@hotmail.com (Is another girl profile in Friendster which I suspect is being scam by him, He also confess I’m not the 1st women like this via MSN)
Location: Staying at Hougang / Seng Kang area
Job: Some kind of building machines and technical stuff. (I didn’t bother to go remember!)

Although I have never seen him in real life, I’ve attached his pictures from Friendster. I’m not a god dame “Tou Foo” who let any guys bully. Dare me! I swear if I can find other girls that is being bully by this guy. I will get enough evidence and lodge a police case.

For any clarification on this email, please feel free to drop me a message at jap_apple@hotmail.com. I WILL NOT CHANGE OR REMOVE ANY PICS FROM MY FRIENDSTER PROFILE http://profiles.friendster.com/japapple AND I WANT TO SEE WHAT THIS IDIOT WILL DO TO MY PHOTOS.

Regards,

Joyce Chew

It's friday!

2008-10-17T17:08:00.006+08:00

Finally, it's FRIDAY!
Last day of weekday = Last day of work IN THIS WEEK!
SHOILK!
But got to go lesson after my work tonight.
Sooo00oooo TIRING!
HORRIBLE! I got 2 quizes on next week "PHYSIC" & DATA STRUCTURE"!
Sooo00oooo SIAN as well!
I haven't start revising yet.
MORE WORSE IS less than a month to my FINAL EXAM!
OMG! I donno how to handle!
This weekend have to force myself to stay at home to study!
Cannot go out to play! Must tolerate!
I MUST BE HARDWORKING! CONCENTRATE!

"STUDY IS SO STRESSFUL AND TIRING! HATE IT!" =(

ICT1M WILL BE MISSED!

2008-10-14T18:11:00.011+08:00

COSTASAND CHALET - 10 Oct TO 12 Oct 2008

MEMORIES IN MY HEART FOREVER!

Never been really enjoy until our moment of gathering has come. I missed the fun, and of cos! Our water battle. OMG! I was splash damn badly by ben say, mao mao, ting feng and roger!

I apperciated Roger planned for this gathering. MuackZ!!!!!!!

Special Date:16 Oct: with Him_Des

2008-10-14T18:11:00.010+08:00

It's been a month since we are apart from each other.
We still meet-up and contacting each other.

Feels:
- im become stronger.
- still will miss him.
- still will think what is he doing now.
- misses when he's beside me.

Des asked me alot of things regarding our relationship.
I'm glad that he did.
:What will happen if we break up after few years?
:Am i able to lead my own life and won't foolish things?
:Am i able to let go?
:If everything went smoothly, we get married alright?

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Des want to stable his life after that he's ORD.
I can't give any answer to him. Cos i donno what will happen in future.
But i know i can't love him so much again and must able to move on no matter what.
I want both of us to follow our heart. This is what i want!

Being so persistant on what i'm going to do, but it seem confusing again. Des told me to wait for him to come back from his Taiwan Trainning and we'll talk about it. I have answered him "i'll wait for the last time." Am i stupid? I guess people might said that. I donno. i really don't. I just told him what i think.

In e end, i told him to wait for me instead. B'cos i want to talk after my examination period. I don't want to affect my studies.Well, telling him to wait for me, i actually quite scared. Cos scare everything won't work out.
But i'm really brave to tell him. I know Des will understand. He wants me to forcus on my studies 1st.

I really do hope that our relation can pass the test. Alright?
Be patient to wait for me to finish my exam ok? Telling you to wait for me isn't that bad. =)

Love, Jocelyn.

S.H.E - FM S.H.E [我的电台] 专辑

2008-10-07T12:25:00.006+08:00

1. 早安您好
2. 我爱烦恼
3. 宇宙小姐
4. 沿海公路的出口
5. 天亮了
6. 比你贱
7. 喜碧夫人时间
8. 女孩当志强
9. 安静了
10. 我是火星人
11. 612星球
12. 店小二
13. 熬夜
14. 月光手札
15. 酸甜 (feat 飞轮海)

**Recommended songs: 沿海公路的出口, 酸甜, 安静了, 612星球, 我是火星人**

S.H.E - 612星球 Lyrics 歌詞

2008-10-06T14:03:00.001+08:00

作詞：徐世珍作曲：鄭楠

滿園玫瑰我以為找到我那一朵
認真愛了卻狠狠刺傷我的雙手
責備什麼人也沒有用
玫瑰都紅難免看錯

望著天空愛是否活在童話裏頭
小王子說有些事流浪過才會懂
原來每顆心都有個洞
找不到真愛會一直寂寞 oh~~~

我但願有一個人在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走
不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘
花別榭太快請你等等我

擦乾眼淚一個人漂流在這宇宙
小王子說愛一定開在某個角落
路上相愛的人那麼多
我會幸福嗎在什麼時候 oh~

我但願有一個人在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走
不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘
花別謝太快請你等等我

我但願有一個人在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走
不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘
花別謝太快請你等等我

STUPID ME!

2008-10-03T10:55:00.005+08:00

I hate myself for being so KPO to read what you have written.
I hate myself for being so persistent in relationship.
I hate myself for being so forgiving all the times.
I hate myself for being thinking of you.
I hate myself for been so unbearable to leave you.
I hate myself for been loving you so much.
I hate myself for doing all the things which make you feel happy.
I hate myself for not looking on the bright side.
I hate myself for not giving a chance to other people.

I HATE MYSELF!
"I dont't wish to end just like that!"

THIS IS NOT WHAT WE WANT, PLEASE!

S.H.E - 安静了Lyrics 歌词

2008-10-03T10:55:00.002+08:00

作詞：任家萱 ( Selina ) 作曲：周杰倫　編曲：呂紹淳　只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡

夢想中屬於我們的婚禮
卻成了單人結婚進行曲
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡
愛我還是愛你你選擇了自己

撒嬌的可愛的黏人的愛哭的照片裡曾經的都是你喜歡的
如今我還在原地你卻走回你的記憶

你說我愛你太多就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情承諾永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔是因為我太愛你

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮安靜了在我枕邊的夢裡
我知道相愛原本就不容易
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局

撒嬌的可愛的黏人的愛哭的照片裡曾經的都是愛著你的
臉頰的淚還溫熱卻沒有人握我的手

你說我愛你太多就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情承諾永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔是因為我太愛你

"You're always on my mind"

2008-10-02T20:55:00.010+08:00

I wanna post again!
I want to write out all i felt!

Des and me have met up yesterday. I'm been thinking for few days should i meet him anot. But when i told myself that he made an initiative to ask me out, i should be brave to face him. After my ice-skating at Leisure Park, he came to find me.

I felt weird at first cos it was really uncomfortable. We are normal, just a casual talk on how's life going. We headed to Esplanade after our dinner. It was a few years back ever since we been there. We find a small corner to sit and here goes our conversation. He asked me do i have any things to tell him? Frankly speaking, 'nope' at the beginning. We sat down at slowly talked about our 5 years+ of relationship. I always told myself to be strong to face it and don't be foolish again. At that moment, i know that i have not forget him and still love him. Des made me so confused. He let me go because:

He want my life to be bright fully.
I love him more than he love me.
He don't want to hurt me if he does anything wrong.
I can be happier without him by my side.

He told me, "Actually i still wish to hold on this relationship. Why you want to come on that day, if you didn't come on, nothing will happen." I felt so heartache when i heard it. i felt that I'm the one making a mess of it. I can sensed EVERYTHING from him. I know we misses each other alot. We have been spending along for 5 years plus. It wasn't easy at all. I felt so relief, when I'm with him. He the only guy that i will make an initiative to do everything. Last night, i really do still love him. When Des told me what's thinking, i felt that it's a good thing. Cos we must shared out our thought. I'm happy that we did. He asked me, "If one day i come back to you, will you come back?, Do you still love me now?" i wish to tell Des the truth that I wish that you will be back by my side and i still love you! But i didn't, i keep on denying cos I'm afraid to get hurt again. I know i should tell him the truth cos i might slipped the chance but I DIDN'T !

When the moment that he lend his head to me and kissed me, i know that he still love me. Cos i understand what he's character is. I can't resist anymore. I just want to cherish the moment that we are together. I felt that he's still with me even though we are apart. I missed the moment that i was sitting at his back and hugging him when he was riding his bike. We headed back to his place. I know that his mum will be surprised to see me and thought we are fine already but we weren't. I go to his place cos i want to pack my stuff back home. But truth fact, i don't bear to leave him and i still want him to be by my side, so without regrets, i followed him. I know Des also can't bear to leave just like that. I know he also miss the moment that we have! I can sensed it even thought he didn't mention anything to me. I decided not to go home cos we really can't bear each other to leave.

The Deep sparkle Of Love That Occurs!

Night time comes, He still sitting beside me, lying on his shoulder and seeing his face. It's really warmed my heart. When the night start to fall, we hugged each other. When the moment that he hugged me, i know that both of us can't bear each other. I love his hugs and i do also. Alot of things occurs so naturally. There's doting, eyes contacting and misses. Cos that's "LOVE". If you won't love a person, you won't have to do such things. I know i couldn't resist anymore cos i still love him. We both treasure the night. Feeling totally changed. Till last night, i then realized how much we love and miss each other and it's so strong without words. I was wronged all the time. i thought we really can't be back again but when i realized alot of things, i know we are truly love each other. I having a warm sleep cos Des is hugging me to sleep throughout the night. He won't have to does all this if he don't love me anymore. When morning reaches, I COULDN'T FACE THE REALITY that we have to leave. Maybe he's waiting for me to finish my bathing, perhaps. We hugged each other right away and give each other a kiss before i leave for my work and he need to go back to camp. It's come across so naturally. Well, i believe in him. Everything! You are my beloved boyfriend all along. Thanks for loving me. Sometimes things are meant to be with us. No regrets and hatefulness. Give a chance to think about what we have and did.

A Message to Des:
"Its really unbearable and really miss everything that we did. I know we still have to move on. The feeling i felt for last night is unforgettable. At that moment, i realized how much we love & miss each other. The night passed fast that we're going to apart each other. We know we can't bear each other to leave but we no choice. For now, we know that leaving each other and giving each other time to think is the best. Our love just like a sparkle of fire. Hugging me to sleep and kisses from you, I will remember always. I wish to be selfish and be a demanding gal that won't allow you to leave. Loving you and be a good girlfriend, will be the best that i can give. It's not going to be history or past tense. It will be a miracle and a future for each day! "

CRAZY SALES!

2008-09-28T12:41:00.009+08:00

Shopping paradise yesterday! Xinxin and i went to Taka and Wisma. We didn't bought anything cos all the items are so EXPENSIVE. I nearly bought a long cottonwood shirt from Pull & Bear but it's cost $50 for it. I think it's not worth cos it's a thin layer of cloth only. Alot of things are tempting but we keep on self resisting. Haha! We plan to meeting another friends of mine at Grand Hyatt Hotel. Why is it at there? They are catching up a BIG BRANDED WAREHOUSE SALE! At first, i wasn't so tempting to go there cos i think the items they're selling are old and dirty. Never expect that it would be a SO GIGANTIC! They sold lots of different branded brands; RAOUL, GAP, LEVIS, GUESS, MISS SIXTY and......... Wowow, the most tempting was "GUESS CORNER", the biggest counter of all. They have almost 20WARDROBES for bags!

BAGS ARE DAMN CHEAP REGARDLESS OF ANY SIZE!

SALES PRICES AS STATED:

- 1 for $45

- 3 for $120

- 5 for $175

UNEXPECTED PRICE DROPPED AFTER 2 HOURS:

Straw bag - $15 (I bought one for my xiao mei.)

Stripe bag - $15 (Although it isn't that beautiful, but i was attracted by it's inner design and compartment. A very useful bag for studying and beach scroll. I bought 2 with different colours! )

Shimmering handbag - $30

Ashly-yellow hand/sling bag - $30(Supposing, this 2 should be @ $45 each but i guess that the cashier has key in the WRONG AMOUNT. I have save $20 for both!)

I HAVE BOUGHT 5 BAGS FROM GUESS! Prices are so reasonable! Call sales were announced at 5pm! They announced that Straw Bag and Stripe Bag are selling at $15 each! Can you imagine a Branded Brand selling at a DAMN CHEAP PRICE? There's a "WOOOOW" sound when the announced was made. Soooooo Funny haha and everybody just snatched the bags EVERYWHERE! Xinxin also snatched the bag like hell, when i saw her hand carried 4 bags on each arm, mean total 8 bags she was carrying. It's was damn funny loh. I can't said her as a typical shopper cos i also acted the same as her! Even one of my guyfriend, Nalvin, he also joined in to look out the bags we want and snatching everywhere! haha. He added: 'I never expect the SALES would be so fun! hahaha."

: 3 OF US BOUGHT TOTAL 0F 10 BAGS at $195.

: ME - $105

:XINXIN - $75

:NALVIN - $15

(sooo less compare to us, cos he bought a ladies bag for his friend!The bags are so heavy, but thanks to Nalvin, he's a gentleman. Helping all of us to carry. xieXie!)

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After payment, we went to far east to SHOP again. I bought a cute lace plain t-shirt with a printed girl on it cost at $29.90 from THE BOX.

*Cute right?*

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WE CAUGHT ANOTHER WAREHOUSE SALES @ SUNTEC CONVENTION HALL.
"JAY GEE SALES"
(Levis, ALDO, Cathier and other. Can't remember all!)
I bought something again. OMG! I been spending the whole day.

ALDO KENDRICKA SHOES @ $25.90.
With Citibank card add. 10% , so i need to pay only $22!
I felt so lucky cos it's the last pair. I just gadded it.

The Colour is so unique and matches well with GREY. So love it.

~TOTAL SPENDITIVE: $156.90-
(Still acceptable, cos i bought alot of things!)
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I bought a "PUMA PINK TOTTE BAG" last week for $79 @ Takashimaya!
But i only paid $19 cash cos I'm using voucher!

It's brighten up my personality and make me feel so cheerful when i use HER!
LIKE IT! LOVE IT!

That's all.......
[Feel kinda guilty and sinful that i kept on spending my money. haha!]

Apperciated and Concerned in me

2008-09-27T00:04:00.004+08:00

I have been living in my own world for 2 weeks. During this 2 weeks, i appreciated what my friends have been pulling me strongly and accompany to walk with me. Each day passes, i felt that i'm getting stronger and stronger. Thanks to all my friends, without you all, i don't know what will happen to me. Planning my activities without consideration of boyfriend's exist and no burden on whether what my decision is make. I believe that being in single hood,there will be advantages. So i'm facing the fact each day and reminding myself that we are apart.

By coincidence, i realized all my close girlfriends were also having a hard time and miserable life in their relationships. I should not name them, but particularly reasons were:

A Gal: Boyfriend neglected her, not showing much concern on her, putting her in 2nd priorities. [A Gal's thought - He made me cried for days, i have been giving him alot of chances but it's doesn't seem any changes and i'm really tired of it. I want to be silent for few months.]

C Gal: Boyfriend are flirting around outside, ONS with gals without feeling and been cheated on her. [C Gal's thought - I really blind to love him, yet i still love him so much. Even now we agreed to end it but we're still contacting I know the truth only when i happen to see his inbox and asking what the hell is going on. I feel so dump.]

Y Gal: [Boyfriend over-controlled to her, easily angry when she get miss called from him, over-possessive for everything. He wanted to end this relationship because he need to fly back to his hometown which can't tell when he will return. [Y Gal's thought - I hope he really understand me and don't wish to get quarrel over a small matters. It's really upset when you want to leave me. Do we really have to end this relationship just because you need to fly back?]

Well, guys are heartless when they have decided what they want. " Some guys" feel that love in long-term relationships will be faded one day and things get to feel bored. Do you know what girls feel in long term relationships? Girls will tend to love more the each day even when it's for years, it will just go deeper and deeper until you're unbearable of him. We can't avoid fate, only to accept it. So in the end, we still have to strong to keep on moving no matter how hard we can't bear. I think relationship is part of life where everybody will need it. So, be a generous girl to give the blessing of yours to him. This is the best that we can do.

########## Peacefully and care-free life and i'm going to archive the best of me to make each day is a blessing!############

Fact From CLEO

2008-09-24T13:55:00.008+08:00

Jo had sent me a message that she read this arrival from CLEO. It was written:

"It said woman tend to be more emotional than man, making harder for us to let go and move on. So many of us fool ourselves into thinking we can remain friends with an excuse, when the real reson behind keepin in contact withhim is to keep track of his life and make sure er move on faster then he does. But all this move does is to create unecessary stress and fufure heartbreak. The guy often said "You will find someone better and i hope you are doing fine on your own." This has do with nothing but spark off a vicious cycle of self pity. Particularly, if he move on while you are still trying to find it in you to throw little notes and other reminders od his presence. If you havenmoved on but persist in keeping contact with him, you are giving him the chance to run back to you if anything go wrong with his new relationship. Other than being his spare tyre, he might just get the idea you are still ava for sex for old time sake.

Sorry for those harsh word cos i really want to nurse your heartache and do not wish you in pain with this relationship. Embraced singlehood, party late into the night, ask friends out and enjoy things that you never had when you were in relationship. The best part is, you can enjoy doing all of this without feeling an ounce of guilt."

[Does it sound realistic to you?] *******

回家 - 顺子

2008-09-24T11:47:00.003+08:00

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我还不明白
为什麽离开了我
没有你的电话
没有一封信
我每天晚上在这里
那里也不想去
可是我好爱你
我觉得我会离不开你
可惜我丢了你
慢慢我的眼泪留下来
回家
回家
我需要你
回家
回家
马上来我的身边
别再哭
就让他走
再多痛苦的等候
相信我也能承受
闭上眼
不再留恋
你却一遍又一遍
出现在想你的夜
别说不会有结果
永远永远
别说分手
而你
又怎麽能够
就这样的放手
一去不再回头
be here, just be there, my love and only love
回家
回家
我需要你
哦
回家
马上回家
我需要你
回家
回家
马上来我的身边
be here, just be there, my love and only love
回家
回家
马上来我的身边
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One Moment Listen Please

2008-09-23T09:37:00.015+08:00

The Moment you are in Tension
You will lose your Attention
Then you are in total Confusion
And you will feel Irritation
Then you will spoil personal Relation
Ultimately, you won't get Co - Operation
Then you will make things Complication
Then your blood pressure may raise Caution
And you may have to take Medication
Instead, understand the Situation
And try to think about the Solution
Many problems will be solved by Discussion
This will work out better in your Profession
Don't think it's my free Suggestion
It's only for your Prevention
If you understand my Intention
You will never come again to Tension

Double Saddish Impact

2008-09-23T09:37:00.014+08:00

I met kelvin after I've finished writing my blog last night. He's my ITE friend and i have not been seeing for 2 years. We decided to meet nearby my place. The 1st question he asked me is You have things to say izzit"? He can sense it. I have told him about my relationship and he has been listening for 5 years too. He's a good listener and gave me advise alot. I know i should look forward and things have to let it go sooner or later. Kelvin told me guys really like to play alot especially when they're in NS because they facing each other 24hr a day and all are a brunch of bunk mates. Without gf, it's definitely will be a enjoyable moment cos all friends are surrounded. But kelvin told me, it's another situation when they have gf, cos they have to schedule their time for friends and gf. Sometimes no choice, have to neglect one side and kanna shoot by friends or gf. To my surprise, kelvin BROKE off with his gf 3 weeks ago after i have vented out all my thoughts. I was shocked. He's look really down. For him, he have no choice to leave her, it is not because he didn't love her anymore, the reason is they couldn't understand what each of them wants and always end up quarreling. Kelvin still loves her but he knows that there's no point together and no future in between them. No matter how hurt, how unbearable he is, he still decided to leave his gf. It's really hurt when the love ones going to leave you. I admitted his courage, maybe he's a guy so his heart is much more stronger than me. Thanks for the companion last night. I know he mean me well which he don't want me to get hurt in future. I have told him actually i see no point too and maybe i been to use with him around, it could be the reason why I'm unbearable too. Sometimes Things isn't work out on your intention. I know kelvin will be able to start a new fresh life soon. I believe you can! Alright? i know it's hard. My phone will be available 24/7 for you. Let's move forward together, i might need your hand to pull me along. So better be prepare OK? I will be there for you also if you need a good listener too.

Miserable.........

2008-09-22T20:24:00.012+08:00

I have been drinking alot this few days. My best friend claudia have went back to her hometown. I missed her alot.

That's her on the left!

I wish i can totally ignore him and disappear from my heart. He has been lying to me. I couldn't believe it that i trust him alot in e end this will happened.

FUCK, Fuck it! I cant control my emotion now but its really damn pissed!
Why people wont't cherish what they have when things are just easy to hold?
Why people will always tend not to satisfied oh what they have now?
Why there's will be no everlasting relationship in this world?
Why people will do things wrong?
Why people will tend to betray their wife and firting outside with other gals?

Faithful person will always tend to get hurt from the loved 1st. Because he/she have given alot of love and concern to her loved. In e end, what will happen? He/she won't tend to cherish what they have and instead letting go! I couldn't understand why love occur in the first place. If you want to fling, just tell them you want to fling. At least, the party will get prepare that it's just a game.

My life have been all messed up! i can't work, sleep, studies and all mean so lifeless to me. It's really effecting my whole life. I wish i can be strong, kept on reminding to just let it go, it's not worth. Cos he's one who let go of me. But i always believe that we LOVE each other just that we didnt realise. Sometimes we tend to neglect other parties, but if things do bother to explain. It's possible to work out to next stage. Why not? WTF! Its giving me madness. I did told my friends that i want to just give up my life. Cos when die, i won't be so miserable anymore and no more torture to me. I thought of many way to end my life. Family giving me pressure and boyfriend is leaving me. The most important roles have been giving me a big blown! What for i still belong to this world. I know i'm silly to say all this but its make me clear my mind. It's useless to do anything. I giving the best of my shot to him not because i want him to stay with me. I understand that the day will come, and its really happened. I'm indeed couldn't face the fact. When a relationship is start, it will have a ending one day just depend whether it is happy ending ever after or miserable ending. If you think that, letting me go is the best choice. I will bear in mind. i been holding on so long because i care about us. I know it's really hard and i know i damn persistent. I DIDNT BLAME YOU, PLS! M i ugly to you? M i a disgrace to you? I hope that one day you will understand me. It's really hurting when you told me to forget you. Been with you for 5 years, how to forget? You can? "The more you love a person, the more hurtful you will get!" I won't ask you to come back to me. I will let you go. Do whatever you like. It's no point to come back now. We need times to cool down. No matter how badly i missed you, it's mean nothing at all.............

i wish to leave out of here and have a long vacation! If i have enough money, i will be flying right away. Sianz......... Venting my anger............. my sadness............. There always a pharse "Plan to be surprised!" It's all doesn't matter now. No soft-hearted, faithful, sweet, caring gal from now. EVERYTHING IS GONE FROM ME. NO MORE AGAIN!

1st Day of Silence Month

2008-09-18T14:24:00.007+08:00

Yesterday was the first day of silence day. I wasn't been good the whole day. I can't even work the whole day and i have lesson at night but i didnt attend. I have lost my soul for the whole day. I did tell my bosses that i'm miserable and sad. They told me its part of routine in life and i have to face it. Everything will become a past tense and i still young. Mr Ng really dote me alot, he knows that i'm in painful and he let me to beat and willing to lend me his shoulder. Thanks sir. I know i'm a small girl to you.

Knock off time is around the corner, i forgot that i got lesson at night. I'm really forgot until Joanne asked me. Me and Joanne have been chatting outside our block for half and hour. She's consoling me and asked me to be strong. I really hope i can be. I cried in toilet twice silently and picked up my phone to see my send message on what i have been sending to Des. When the moment i thought of it, its really unbearable. I couldn'y believe everything going to end one day. I have spent my night at Claudia's apartment (My germany friend), she been asking me to join her for a BBQ with them because she's leaving the next 2 days. OMG!!!! she's leaving from me soon. But i know she has to go back one day. We been spending a night at her BBQ pit and we been playing and eating till 11pm. But we didnt stopped our fun, we went to a Pub (Crazy Elephant) at Clarke Quay to chill and drink. We have quite alot of drinks at her BBQ before we were setting off to Pub. I need them to be my side cos i know i cant be alone. Once alone, i will think of Des again. It was a funny night out with them, they get so high-up and we saw some funny joke article about wife, husband, sex........ It's a breaking ice indeed. After that, we walked around. We saw alot of hock girls who are looking for their prey. We're so bad. Keep on teasing them from far. Next, we swapped to PUMP Plub to have more drinks. Wow, Claudia ordered a Bailey Nid (Strong thick favour of Milk Chocolate) , its was very nice! I love it! Chatting alot and in e end, we finally decided to go home at 2am. I went to Claudia's place to overnight because she's staying in NYP and that's my working place.

I told myself i must keep myself ocupied and do whatever i want during this month. Play, club, travel and more. Of cos, i can't skipped lesson anymore. I know its shouldn't influence my studies. I wont, i promise myself. I have to be strong and cheerful the each day. I will tend to pick up my phone to write a message to Des. I wish to tell him that can we don't give up each other and stay to each other side? But i know i can't do it. We have been going through alot, i'm so worried when you're sick, cook dishes for you to eat, when you have difficulties, i will be always be yours side to help.

Chinese New Year: Been with you for 5 days.
Valentine Day: An appreciated message received from you.
Illness Day: Another apperciated message from you.
Bangkok and Diving Trip: You missed me alot.
School Term Start: You bother to come so far to fetch me.

Why it will turn out to be like this? Why WHY WHHYYY? Is it because i'm controlling you too much? Not enough freedom that you have? I'm okie with it. We just share it out. Never expect that, we have to silence a month with you. I have been spending all my times and weekend just to be with you. No shopping or staying at home, i'm happy le. Cos i know what you want. I don't want to force you to do things that you don't like. Dear, i hope you can totally understanding me one day. Can you? I didn't blame you. I know you have been trying so hard. My nagging isn't strong ok.

*Life still have to go on.*

Requesting for a silence one month break

2008-09-17T13:25:00.008+08:00

From the title you should know what's going on. Des and me have decided to separate for a month due to so many reasons. We have been with each other for 5 years 5 months. During the journey, alot of memories occurred.

I do love Des alot, i think because i do alot of commitment in our relationship. I always tell myself as long as i'm holding this relationship, i have to be faithful, trust and honest to Des. Sometimes i do think that do i still love Des? There's a doubt sometimes. but sincerely, answer is yes. When he's overseas, i keep on counting down the days when he's back in Spore. Alot of people told me that 5 years relationship will tend to be more faded and no more sweetness in it. I didnt agree with them. I love to when we're playing, hugging, beating and all sort of things together. Of cos, sometimes we're pissed off by each other too. We have overcome so many times. True fact "Relationship cant be lasting" without putting effort in it. Its need both parties to clap.

Before the night he set off to Genting, i wrote a letter to him. I did think twice whether i should let him read the letter, cos i think it might effect our relationship. I do afraid to lose him but it's really unforgivable. With my upset and fear, i still decided to let him read the letter. I wrote:

"I felt disappointed that you deleted the comment that i wrote to you. Are you unhappy with it? Or anything wrong with the comment? Maybe without the"dear" word, you would have keep it. I never ever thought you will deleted it away. There's a reason behind for you to do it............................. and no commitment...................................."

But truth is, Des really thinks about our relationship when he's in Genting. He bought the letter with him. I knew when the letter is in his hand, there will be conflict again. It's happened when Des came back from Genting. He have made a special request from me that is to "Can we have a silence month break"? At first, i really don't wish to leave cos i felt that's everything is going smoothly now. It might be only surface of book. But at that moment, i insist not to leave. Its really heartache to see this ending. I wrote to him because i want us to be truth to our self and hopefully we can made some amending to it. Its not about leaving or not leaving but to go into a deeper stage. Guess i have given alot of pressure to Des, this relationship is adding a burden to him which resist himself from what Des wants to do. Its been so many years. Des has told me to understand him as well. Des think that i love him more than he love that its unfair to me. So having a one month silence break is the best. I have no choice to accept the fate. I know its no point dragging it also. Give each other time to think whether we really can make things work anot. Both of our thinking are different, he want to enjoy the freedom and play with all his energy and for me, i want a boyfriend that can show care love to me and of cos i wish that he can stick with me.

I have thought since the whole night throughout, we should give each other time to think what we actually wants. So been without contacting and seeing each other for a month is the best solution. Sometimes i did think to end for few months, but if everything ended, it's hard to get go back again. I couldn't bear to leave Des cos we been too far to to be too close and maybe that's the reason why we would have to do it. Being a Des's gf for so many years, i have learn alot of valuable things and with grown me up during this 5 years. I not to going to pull or hold Des back anymore for this one month. "IF ITS YOUR, ITS YOUR", there's no need to be fear or afraid whether he will/wont be back. I have to face the fate. Desdear: moments that we spent i still remember from now. From schooling till your NS, i am happy that we share alot of things and cherish me. You have been trying very hard already in our relationship. i couldn't expect you to give me more cos it's beyond your limit.

From today onwards, i will be strong and brave to face it. It not miserable to me anymore. Life still have to go on no matter how hard is the road. I won't bother Des for the time being. We need our own empty space. Loving a person is really a most difficult role in life and able to continue with your loved is another chapter of story.

With lots of thought and lost's soul.

====Jocelyn never regret been together with Desmond====
====='m appreciated for what Des have done===========
====One month of silence break will end in 16 Oct 08===
====Jocelyn have to be strong to keep on moving======

DESLYNIE'S FLEA MARKET ALERT!

2008-06-03T13:02:00.003+08:00

DESLYNIE'S UPCOMING EVENT
Venue:Youth Park; opposite Cineleisure
Date: 14th June 2008
Time: 1pm - 7pm
***=== Look out for Deslynie Corner ====***

LIME FLEA MARKET ON 10TH MAY, YOUTH PARK

2008-06-03T12:38:00.011+08:00

Wowzz. what a hotty day on our 1st flea market. opposite Cineleisure. Never expect that there are crowds cos its not a good weather day. Well, Joanne, sixin and me actually feel so excited about our 1st flea market. See photos below on out booth. haha. At least its look presentable. My homemade accessories isnt selling very well but my second hands good is indeed a good attractive lobang. I felt that everybody is looking for cheap stuffs. Guess how much i sold my belts? Price ranges from $3-$5, its consider very cheap but guess what? There's still people bargain for $2! Omg. I impressive by them especially by young teenagers. Base on my second hands good, i nearly earn $100 on that day. I think that consider quite alot on that day. We took about almost 2 hours to set up our booth. wahaha. That's long man.

"Our Accessories Corner", is it very nice? I love it so much. Esp the earrings stand.

That's me with a big smile. Can imagine how happy am i. Do you saw the crowd behind me?

"3 little princess with a tiring face", ophs no customer at all! Bored.

LIME FLEA MARKET ON 1OTH MAY, OPP CINELEISURE @ YOUTH PARK.
(loaded with people!)

DESLYNIE'S CORNER

2008-05-22T00:20:00.006+08:00

Bestseller Box @ DESLYNIE:
1st: #1 Mini Angel
2nd: #3 Classic Bell
3rd: #2 Pacifier

Designs Latest Updated Box:
Handphone: #5 to #8 (2 MAY 08- 8 MAY 08)
Handphone: #9 (21 MAY 08)

FOR HIM & FOR HER ( with Sworovski)

2008-05-21T23:24:00.004+08:00

Dear dudes and hunks, figuring what to buy for your girl/boyfriend? Here are some of the ideas that you can pleased your lover with! Handmade Swaroski Crystal...... I doubt she will award you with alot of *sweet* kisses. Have a good browsing. More design and updates will be coming soon!

(Meaning of Crystal: Everlasting and Eternal love)

With Deslynie's love.

Charlene's Story

2008-05-12T17:54:00.006+08:00

"My boyfriend have grown roots in my hearts. From a seed to a 6 years old green lovely little tree with little blossom flowers all over it. Await to change from flower to fruit. But things change when girlfriend start to pick down those lovely flower from the tree. Just because the flowers are beautiful that moment. She neglect boyfriend hardship for this tree. She knows if she going to continue picking the flowers till autums comes and winter. Now, girlfriend had stopped picking the lovely flowers and she just want more lovely flowers blossom each day."

She have make a choice to put a stop on it even she still have the urge to pick those lovely flowers because Charlene want the tree with flowers forever. That's her wish.

Cherry Blossom Tree that she wish for....

Swarovski's Necklace, Bracelet & Key Chain

2008-05-02T12:16:00.015+08:00

#1 - $14.90

#2 - 14.90

#3 - $16.90

Key Chain
#4 - $12.90

#5 - 11.90

#6 - $17.90

#27 - $17.90

#8 - $16.90

Swarovski's Earring

2008-05-01T17:48:00.005+08:00

#1 Balls Earring
Available colour: beige, blue, pink, purple, green, white
$14.90

#2 Cubez with Mini black Butterfly Earring
Available colour: Black
$12.90

#3 Candy Hearts Earring
Available Colour: Pink
$13.90

#4 Butterfly with Red Earring
Colour: Black
$13.90

#5 Simplified
Available colour: Purple, Blue, Pink, Greem.
$9.90

Swarovski's Handphone Accessories

2008-04-25T13:23:00.017+08:00

#1 Mini Angel
(25mm by 25mm)
Available colour: Pink, turquie, baby purple & blue
Available crown: Gold, sliver & pink.
1 piece: $14.90
2 pieces: $25.80

#2 Pacifier
(25mm by 10mm)
Available colour: crystal white (main)
$14.90

#3.1 Qing Tian WAWA

(30mm by 40mm)

Available colour: beige, baby blue, green, pink, purple or

white crystal with gold ring

$19.90

#3.2 Classic Bell
(20mm by 30mm)
Available colour: beige, baby blue, green, pink, purple or
white crystal with gold ring
$16.90

#4 Cubeiz
(15mm by 50mm)
Available colour: beige cube with gold, sliver strips
$15.90

#5 Cherry With Leaf
(left size: 28mm by 23mm)
Available leaf colour: green & turquie
$18.90

#6 Enchanted
( 17mm by 45mm)
Available leaf colour: Pink, blue, purple, green & beige.
$15.90

#7 Black Butterfly
( 10mm by 60mm)
Available leaf colour: Black
$12.90

#8 Trival Vase
( 30mm by 23mm)
Available colour: crystal white (main)
$18.90

#8 Baby Turtle
( 30mm by 40mm)
Available colour: green, purple, blue & main (clear)
$14.90

MEN'S WEAR

2008-04-20T23:37:00.000+08:00