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One Moment in Time

DesDear had went to taiwan for NS training.

He will be back in 2 weeks time.

I'm missing my dear now.

Hope he's fine at there.

I know the training will be tough.

It's going to over soon.

Count down: 13 days left.

Huggies + Kisses to you dear.

"I'm so joyful, going to collect my baby car soon, i want to drive!"

Latest Online Sex Maniac + Crazy!

Hi dude, I happened to read an email forward from my friend.
I think it's good to share out with you girls. This is a true story ans beware of this CRAZY man.
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Dear friends,

Please forward this email to your girls friends or the one you care! This incident happen to me, myself and Joyce in real life! This is not a story making thingy! You can choose to forward or just simply ignore if you feel this is a joke!

This guy who named Jason Poh came message me in friendster:

KRING wrote: "Hi. I am very sincere and looking for a friend, and long-term relationship. I would describe myself as an ambitious, fun loving, energetic individual who believes in living life to the fullest. I am interested in finding someone to grow with, besides around the waist. I take great pride in my physical appearance. I am looking for a real friendship and love, fun and relationship and traveling and know its a little far away, but I am a nice and genuine. I am a good listener, passionate and have a good sense of humor, and confident and looking for someone to share my laughter, dreams and the joys of life and for fun if so. But if we share the same interests, u could send me a message anytime to know each other better!! Jason And if you dun my to Call me O sMs me, my Mobile is 82602728".

I choose not to contact him via phone as I don't even know who the hell he is. We only managed to exchange msn and chat online.The 1st conversation online: This guy keep asking me to be his girlfriend and he insisted to meet up (only the 2 of us and he don’t want other parties). He keep asking questions related to sex which I feel he is sick. I rejected him nicely saying we can be friends and others we shall talk later. This guy is totally crazy! He keep saying he do not want to spent time understand a women being friends as he is looking for a GF/Wife.

I ignored his request and he demand me from deleting his email from my MSN but I cannot block him. (WTF)? I log off forgetting about what this crazy man said. Next day, he log in to msn and message threatening me that he will go to my friendster acct download all my pictures.

Below is the last conversation between me and him in msn before I blocked and delete him from my msn acct.

KRING says (12:54 AM): Hi cheeBye you to deleted my email off form your msn why you didnt do that, you wan me to post your photo and email on the irc
KRING says (12:54 AM): you can dare me
KRING says (12:54 AM): i had just download all your photo from friendster
KRING just sent you a nudge.
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:57 AM): u r crazy
KRING says (12:57 AM): yah i am
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:57 AM): is not about the age but ur mentality
KRING says (12:57 AM): you wan to try
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:57 AM): so childish
KRING says (12:57 AM): you not the first woman like this
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:57 AM): no wonder u cant find a gf
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): go ahead and do watever you u wan
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): it dun reali bother me
KRING says (12:58 AM): my gf is better and slim then you
KRING says (12:58 AM): sure
KRING says (12:58 AM): you wan like this
KRING says (12:58 AM): i post your photo n email
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): watever.. then u must be blind to msg me at first
KRING just sent you a nudge.
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): thank you for helping me to advertise
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (12:58 AM): i can sure get better guys then u
KRING says (1:00 AM): i had post your photo n email on the classifed, u will get it v soon
KRING says (1:01 AM): and i know where you working, i will look for your boss
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (1:01 AM): wateverKRING says (1:01 AM): u love to challage me
J.oY.c.E - ジョイス - says (1:01 AM): go to hell

I’ve blocked this person from my MSN and god, I’m lucky that I didn’t give him my phone number. I’m prepared that there will be some nuisance email coming to me. Please forward this email to all your friends that you care. There are too many crazy people and sex maniac online. Is always to be safe than sorry.

For your information:
Name: Jason Poh
Mobile: 82602728
Friendster profile: http://profiles.friendster.com/81623793
His MSN address: just_normal_girl@hotmail.com (Is another girl profile in Friendster which I suspect is being scam by him, He also confess I’m not the 1st women like this via MSN)
Location: Staying at Hougang / Seng Kang area
Job: Some kind of building machines and technical stuff. (I didn’t bother to go remember!)

Although I have never seen him in real life, I’ve attached his pictures from Friendster. I’m not a god dame “Tou Foo” who let any guys bully. Dare me! I swear if I can find other girls that is being bully by this guy. I will get enough evidence and lodge a police case.

For any clarification on this email, please feel free to drop me a message at jap_apple@hotmail.com. I WILL NOT CHANGE OR REMOVE ANY PICS FROM MY FRIENDSTER PROFILE http://profiles.friendster.com/japapple AND I WANT TO SEE WHAT THIS IDIOT WILL DO TO MY PHOTOS.

Regards,

Joyce Chew

It's friday!

Finally, it's FRIDAY!
Last day of weekday = Last day of work IN THIS WEEK!
SHOILK!
But got to go lesson after my work tonight.
Sooo00oooo TIRING!
HORRIBLE! I got 2 quizes on next week "PHYSIC" & DATA STRUCTURE"!
Sooo00oooo SIAN as well!
I haven't start revising yet.
MORE WORSE IS less than a month to my FINAL EXAM!
OMG! I donno how to handle!
This weekend have to force myself to stay at home to study!
Cannot go out to play! Must tolerate!
I MUST BE HARDWORKING! CONCENTRATE!

"STUDY IS SO STRESSFUL AND TIRING! HATE IT!" =(

ICT1M WILL BE MISSED!

COSTASAND CHALET - 10 Oct TO 12 Oct 2008

MEMORIES IN MY HEART FOREVER!

Never been really enjoy until our moment of gathering has come. I missed the fun, and of cos! Our water battle. OMG! I was splash damn badly by ben say, mao mao, ting feng and roger!

I apperciated Roger planned for this gathering. MuackZ!!!!!!!

Special Date:16 Oct: with Him_Des

It's been a month since we are apart from each other.
We still meet-up and contacting each other.

Feels:
- im become stronger.
- still will miss him.
- still will think what is he doing now.
- misses when he's beside me.

Des asked me alot of things regarding our relationship.
I'm glad that he did.
:What will happen if we break up after few years?
:Am i able to lead my own life and won't foolish things?
:Am i able to let go?
:If everything went smoothly, we get married alright?

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Des want to stable his life after that he's ORD.
I can't give any answer to him. Cos i donno what will happen in future.
But i know i can't love him so much again and must able to move on no matter what.
I want both of us to follow our heart. This is what i want!

Being so persistant on what i'm going to do, but it seem confusing again. Des told me to wait for him to come back from his Taiwan Trainning and we'll talk about it. I have answered him "i'll wait for the last time." Am i stupid? I guess people might said that. I donno. i really don't. I just told him what i think.

In e end, i told him to wait for me instead. B'cos i want to talk after my examination period. I don't want to affect my studies.Well, telling him to wait for me, i actually quite scared. Cos scare everything won't work out.
But i'm really brave to tell him. I know Des will understand. He wants me to forcus on my studies 1st.

I really do hope that our relation can pass the test. Alright?
Be patient to wait for me to finish my exam ok? Telling you to wait for me isn't that bad. =)

Love, Jocelyn.

S.H.E - FM S.H.E [我的电台] 专辑

1. 早安您好
2. 我爱烦恼
3. 宇宙小姐
4. 沿海公路的出口
5. 天亮了
6. 比你贱
7. 喜碧夫人时间
8. 女孩当志强
9. 安静了
10. 我是火星人
11. 612星球
12. 店小二
13. 熬夜
14. 月光手札
15. 酸甜 (feat 飞轮海)

**Recommended songs: 沿海公路的出口, 酸甜, 安静了, 612星球, 我是火星人**

S.H.E - 612星球 Lyrics 歌詞

作詞：徐世珍 作曲：鄭楠

滿園玫瑰我以為找到我那一朵
認真愛了卻狠狠刺傷我的雙手
責備什麼人也沒有用
玫瑰都紅 難免看錯

望著天空愛是否活在童話裏頭
小王子說有些事流浪過才會懂
原來每顆心都有個洞
找不到真愛 會一直寂寞 oh~~~

我但願有一個人在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走
不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘
花別榭太快 請你等等我

擦乾眼淚一個人漂流在這宇宙
小王子說愛一定開在某個角落
路上相愛的人那麼多
我會幸福嗎 在什麼時候 oh~

我但願有一個人在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走
不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘
花別謝太快 請你等等我

我但願有一個人在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走
不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘
花別謝太快 請你等等我

STUPID ME!

I hate myself for being so KPO to read what you have written.
I hate myself for being so persistent in relationship.
I hate myself for being so forgiving all the times.
I hate myself for being thinking of you.
I hate myself for been so unbearable to leave you.
I hate myself for been loving you so much.
I hate myself for doing all the things which make you feel happy.
I hate myself for not looking on the bright side.
I hate myself for not giving a chance to other people.

I HATE MYSELF!
"I dont't wish to end just like that!"

THIS IS NOT WHAT WE WANT, PLEASE!

S.H.E - 安静了Lyrics 歌词

作詞：任家萱 ( Selina ) 作曲：周杰倫　編曲：呂紹淳　 只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡

夢想中屬於我們的婚禮
卻成了 單人結婚進行曲
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡
愛我還是愛你 你選擇了自己

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是你喜歡的
如今我還在原地 你卻走回你的記憶

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮 安靜了 在我枕邊的夢裡
我知道相愛原本就不容易
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是愛著你的
臉頰的淚還溫熱 卻沒有人握我的手

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你

"You're always on my mind"

I wanna post again!
I want to write out all i felt!

Des and me have met up yesterday. I'm been thinking for few days should i meet him anot. But when i told myself that he made an initiative to ask me out, i should be brave to face him. After my ice-skating at Leisure Park, he came to find me.

I felt weird at first cos it was really uncomfortable. We are normal, just a casual talk on how's life going. We headed to Esplanade after our dinner. It was a few years back ever since we been there. We find a small corner to sit and here goes our conversation. He asked me do i have any things to tell him? Frankly speaking, 'nope' at the beginning. We sat down at slowly talked about our 5 years+ of relationship. I always told myself to be strong to face it and don't be foolish again. At that moment, i know that i have not forget him and still love him. Des made me so confused. He let me go because:

• He want my life to be bright fully.
• I love him more than he love me.
• He don't want to hurt me if he does anything wrong.
• I can be happier without him by my side.
  

He told me, "Actually i still wish to hold on this relationship. Why you want to come on that day, if you didn't come on, nothing will happen." I felt so heartache when i heard it. i felt that I'm the one making a mess of it. I can sensed EVERYTHING from him. I know we misses each other alot. We have been spending along for 5 years plus. It wasn't easy at all. I felt so relief, when I'm with him. He the only guy that i will make an initiative to do everything. Last night, i really do still love him. When Des told me what's thinking, i felt that it's a good thing. Cos we must shared out our thought. I'm happy that we did. He asked me, "If one day i come back to you, will you come back?, Do you still love me now?" i wish to tell Des the truth that I wish that you will be back by my side and i still love you! But i didn't, i keep on denying cos I'm afraid to get hurt again. I know i should tell him the truth cos i might slipped the chance but I DIDN'T !

When the moment that he lend his head to me and kissed me, i know that he still love me. Cos i understand what he's character is. I can't resist anymore. I just want to cherish the moment that we are together. I felt that he's still with me even though we are apart. I missed the moment that i was sitting at his back and hugging him when he was riding his bike. We headed back to his place. I know that his mum will be surprised to see me and thought we are fine already but we weren't. I go to his place cos i want to pack my stuff back home. But truth fact, i don't bear to leave him and i still want him to be by my side, so without regrets, i followed him. I know Des also can't bear to leave just like that. I know he also miss the moment that we have! I can sensed it even thought he didn't mention anything to me. I decided not to go home cos we really can't bear each other to leave.

The Deep sparkle Of Love That Occurs!

Night time comes, He still sitting beside me, lying on his shoulder and seeing his face. It's really warmed my heart. When the night start to fall, we hugged each other. When the moment that he hugged me, i know that both of us can't bear each other. I love his hugs and i do also. Alot of things occurs so naturally. There's doting, eyes contacting and misses. Cos that's "LOVE". If you won't love a person, you won't have to do such things. I know i couldn't resist anymore cos i still love him. We both treasure the night. Feeling totally changed. Till last night, i then realized how much we love and miss each other and it's so strong without words. I was wronged all the time. i thought we really can't be back again but when i realized alot of things, i know we are truly love each other. I having a warm sleep cos Des is hugging me to sleep throughout the night. He won't have to does all this if he don't love me anymore. When morning reaches, I COULDN'T FACE THE REALITY that we have to leave. Maybe he's waiting for me to finish my bathing, perhaps. We hugged each other right away and give each other a kiss before i leave for my work and he need to go back to camp. It's come across so naturally. Well, i believe in him. Everything! You are my beloved boyfriend all along. Thanks for loving me. Sometimes things are meant to be with us. No regrets and hatefulness. Give a chance to think about what we have and did.

A Message to Des:
"Its really unbearable and really miss everything that we did. I know we still have to move on. The feeling i felt for last night is unforgettable. At that moment, i realized how much we love & miss each other. The night passed fast that we're going to apart each other. We know we can't bear each other to leave but we no choice. For now, we know that leaving each other and giving each other time to think is the best. Our love just like a sparkle of fire. Hugging me to sleep and kisses from you, I will remember always. I wish to be selfish and be a demanding gal that won't allow you to leave. Loving you and be a good girlfriend, will be the best that i can give. It's not going to be history or past tense. It will be a miracle and a future for each day! "