We still meet-up and contacting each other.
Feels:
- im become stronger.
- still will miss him.
- still will think what is he doing now.
- misses when he's beside me.
Des asked me alot of things regarding our relationship.
I'm glad that he did.
:What will happen if we break up after few years?
:Am i able to lead my own life and won't foolish things?
:Am i able to let go?
:If everything went smoothly, we get married alright?
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Des want to stable his life after that he's ORD.
I can't give any answer to him. Cos i donno what will happen in future.
But i know i can't love him so much again and must able to move on no matter what.
I want both of us to follow our heart. This is what i want!
Being so persistant on what i'm going to do, but it seem confusing again. Des told me to wait for him to come back from his Taiwan Trainning and we'll talk about it. I have answered him "i'll wait for the last time." Am i stupid? I guess people might said that. I donno. i really don't. I just told him what i think.
In e end, i told him to wait for me instead. B'cos i want to talk after my examination period. I don't want to affect my studies.Well, telling him to wait for me, i actually quite scared. Cos scare everything won't work out.
But i'm really brave to tell him. I know Des will understand. He wants me to forcus on my studies 1st.
I really do hope that our relation can pass the test. Alright?
Be patient to wait for me to finish my exam ok? Telling you to wait for me isn't that bad. =)
Love, Jocelyn.
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